How would my 2010 end?

This is a very good question. Everyone is planning their New Year Eve and Christmas Eve in advance but me sitting here plan nothing. Because this year is the transition period in me which my Christmas Eve, Christmas and New Year eve and New Year for 2011 I am alone. He is at Manchester United cannot celebrate this few event with me together again. Wait for three more years he MIGHT be coming back. Why might? Because I not sure yet what is his next planning.
Let’s refresh what have been happen in the year of 2010.

January 2010
I knew the year of 2010 will be the toughest year for me. This is because my special ones told me that he already decided to leave me in Malaysia and he is heading to Manchester to future his studies so that our future life will be much better than what we have now. I accept it as faith. In my heart, I really very angry at him but there have no choice; since this is what he wants I have to give. What he had decided, nobody can change. That’s the fact!

February 2010
He is busy preparing for his final exam that comes after Chinese New Year. For me, I am always the one that enjoy the most when he is around me. He will pick me here and there, wherever I want to go he will send me, whatever I want to eat he will bring me there. This is the best part when it comes to holiday. This year Chinese New Year a bit difference because Valentine day falls on the 1st day of CNY. Therefore, no celebration. So sad right? At least I got a gift from him and he promise to replace the celebration after his exam. That’s February. Time flies so fast that March is on the way coming. In the particular month, I really hope that the time can stop moving so that he will be by my side until the day we turns old because without him everything like lost direction. Maybe what Say June said is right, he pamper me too much already.

March 2010
He got his latest letter offer and starts to plan how to talk to his family about his future studies at United Kingdom. This month is my exam month too. All my presentation and mid-term crash together. Therefore, I am so stress up by everything until we argue and had a big fight. This is what I remember.

April 2010
I am busying with my final year project and theses as well as other coursemate also do the same as me.

May 2010
Busy revising for the final year and final semester exam.

June 2010
Start working at Sekolah Sri Murni as permanent teaching staff.

July 2010
Birthday celebration for me and my dear. Bur this year we celebrate it among ourselves only. There is no special event for our birthday.

August 2010
This is the month where I emo a lot because next month on the 12th he is going to left me and heading to Manchester for his studies. So, both couple plans a vacation to Genting for the sake of having happy memories before they depart to UK leaving me and Nicole behind. However, I still feel lack of something that I do not know what is it in this month. Anyhow, we are busying with all the packing stuff along the whole month and because of this I change from permanent teaching staff to flexi teaching staff. Overall, the month of August is the month of sadness.

September 2010
I really hate September 2010. This is the month that he is going to leave me. From the beginning of the month, everyone is busy helping him packing his luggage and all the daily stuff that he needs. He will depart on 12 September 2010. Till the day end I will remember this date. I wish that this date will never reach but this is reality not my imaginary world so time will never stop I knew that I need to face the fact that he is leaving very soon. On that particular day, I drove to KLIA and I send him there. Amazing right? Sending off someone you love so much. At 1st I don’t really feel anything, I thought that I can bear with his departure to UK without dropping tears but I am wrong. My tears start to falls once Azrul reach the airport. We sat down in a coffee shop and chit chat, suddenly my heart feels so painful and I wanted to hug him so tight I don’t wish to let go. However, I get to control myself I keep on ask him to get off to the gate of departure because I really worry that I will not let him go. Luckily, Nicole is with me because she too sending off someone that she love so much. At last, we both cried when they already enter the immigration departure gates. The most amazing things are I still able to drive back to KL from KLIA. But that night is definitely a very bitter night that I ever had. My best friend knew that I am sending him off to UK, she called me up and ask how am I. Always there is still friends around me these make me a little bit better. After he departs on the 12 of September, my final exam comes on 15 of September. This makes me crazy. I don’t even know how to stable down my emotion in few days time and back to my books to finish off my revision. The worst things are this is the 1st final exam that he is not with me. From the day I start my degree he is always there to send me and pick me for my every exam either mid-term or final. Now I need to take KTM all the way to Kampar myself to sit for the final exam. There Say June will take care of my everything. He is the best God Brother of mine.

October 2010
One month already he departs to Manchester. I miss him so much~ Sometimes when I miss him in the middle of the night, I will hugs the bear and cried myself silently. I cant get use to the life without him. It is so hard!

November 2010
Two month already he departs to Manchester. Miss him more and more~ I start to envy those couple that sharing their time together with each other every day. This is the month that I my emotion keep going down and down and down. Just because of you are not beside me. Another reason is season greeting is just around the corner this make my mood worst. One more is we kept arguing almost every time we chat.

December 2010
The month of December is the most adventurous month. This is the month that I shop a lot, movie a lot, eat a lot and also spend a lot because of the shopping. My mood starts to recover as few of my close friends give me some accompany. Appreciate those who spend time accompany me to have fun and also those who bring me out for nice food. =)

3rd December 2010: Meet Azrul, Nabil, Wilson, Lutfi at Sunway Pyramid then we when to Shogun to have our buffet dinner.

4th December 2010: When jogging(force to) then after jogging go home bath and have some rest while saving all my documents into my pendrive then heading to times square for Rapunzel tangled tale before that I send my computer to Imbi Plaza for repairing. After the movie, I went to Midvalley Redbox for sing k session. That day was really tiring. Reach home straight when to bed.

6th December 2010: Got job offer from KBU College. I am so happy.

7th December 2010: Is public holiday again. When jogging then go to mid valley to watch Narnia and went shopping for my working attire. Get a SEED coat which cost me RM200.

In between these dates there are activities going on which is go jogging in different park. We when jogging at Bukit Jalil park but mostly there is not jogging, can consider as visiting wild life because there are lots of animals in the park! I saw monkeys……hee…….my best friends forever.

24th December 2010: When to MidValley for dinner and the outback steak house for supper. I am gaining weight! Oh I cant believe that I ate that much on the day itself!

25th December 2010: When Sunway Pyramid for shopping again. But I bought nothing even that day is Christmas sales! I think this called window shopping. We have lunch at Full House and the dessert there is super delicious! I like the puff so much! After that, we when ice room for ice session! Then I went home dinner alone due to some reason……>.<

26th December 2010: When kajang suddenly for satay session! Then the “driver” kidnap me makan angin around Hulu Langat reason is try out new road and avoid toll @.@ On that particular day, William kena bully by me when we when makan angin around the hill top…hahaha

27th December 2010: Start my working life as a lecturer. Is super busy. Until now I am still preparing power point slide and notes for the students. Semester start on 6th Jan 2011.

30th December 2010: Today mood extremely good because 31st declared as public holiday by our PM. So that I can sleep and have fun counting down! Glade that is public holiday if not I needs to freeze 1 more day in my office which cold like winter!

31st December 2010: Still no planning and uncertain yet. My New Year wish is forget the sad things and remember the sweet memories that we have in 2010. Move on sweet heart! You need to do so little girl! <-- Given this nickname by “badak”. Now few people called me this way!
My wish list for the year of 2011 will be remaining in my mind. Will not announce…..so do my hope…..Have a blast and a great year of 2011 ahead! Wish everyone that read my blog a Happy new year 2011. =)

2.50AM still awake~

Now is 2.50AM in the morning, I am still awake. Cannot get into my dream yet the reason is what I also don’t really know. This is just a random post which I feel I want to write a new post but don’t know what post. I don’t know what am I going to write and don’t know how to start. Okey, let me ask actually who is reading my blog? I am curious because there never have any comment don’t care is the blog entry or the chat box is so quiet here. If you are one of the people that read my blog, can you please let me know by writing your name or who are you in the chat box? I just wish to know. That’s it! =) Thanks!

I Am Back!

I left my blog quite a long time. Do I? Because of some personal reason I left it without any update. Now everything is fine and I learn how to accept the facts that he is really in United Kingdom and he really can’t accompany me for my daily activities anymore so there goes I need to find my friends to pass my time. As I fill my time with activities, I will have less time to think of all those sad moment in KLIA. Now I am really fine. That’s why I am back!

Between this coming December fill with Christmas, our anniversary and also 2011 new year eve. Till now there is still no event yet for me, I hope that my Christmas will not be lonely. It goes to New Year eve as well. Our anniversary I really got no idea how to celebrate it because my dear is don’t know how many nautical mile far from me! Haha~ You can try google map then let me know….

Today is a boring day because is public holiday! I got no place to go just stay at home. My leg hurts as well. *sob*

My Answer~

I LOVE YOU AND I MISS YOU! This is the answer that you are searching right? Haha…I tell you now loudly! I miss you so much! I miss the days you spend together with me! When is the next time we will meet? When is the time that I am in your arms again? I want a warm hugs from you when I meet you again!

From,

Your sweetheart....

Nottygal88

Wonderful Saturday!

Today awake about 11am. After awake I on my computer then go prepared to go out movie, shopping and eat with Nicole at 1 Utama. I on my computer is because want to use skype to sms my dear. After sms dear then I went out because our time to meet each other is 1pm. Don’t know why today traffic super terrible go also jam come back home also jam make me reach home about 10.30pm.

Above is Sushi Zanmai receipt and below is Marks & Spencer receipt. Wait to claim from my dear. (in pound) ^^

When I reach 1 Utama is already 1.15pm then I search for parking around 15 minutes. Just so lucky I got my parking in front of the cinema entrance. Then I meet Nicole at MPH. We went to Sushi Zanmai for lunch. I ordered Chawamushi, Unagi Taufu and Chicken Gaoza. After lunch we went shopping for a while because our movie starts at 4.20pm. I went to Marks & Spencer buys some chocolates and biscuits before going to movie.

Lonely movie ticket. Not two is one now till after three years.

Before movie start around 4pm we collect the movie ticket. Before this we went down to search for Honeymoon restaurant that sell all the sweet stuff like ice mango and others but the shop undergo renovation so Nicole choco banana gone. Actually the shop relocated at the cinema floor just a small corner, when Nicole saw it we decided to eat it before the movie start. So she got her choco banana.

We watch Legend of the Guardian. It was so nice! The only things that I am so moody when enter the cinema is this time I am watching movie without you. Sad things! But I saw inside the movie the owl is so handsome! Haha! After movie we head to Desa Park City because of the bear. I cannot get the treats that bear want at 1 Utama Pet’s More the worker said Desa Park City should have. Nicole told me it is near then she decides to have dinner there. A very special steamboat shop that the steamboat portion is according to per person even the soup. Is so nice! So when we reached there we went to the pet shop but the worker said the brand cat treat out of stock! I am like what the hell. They start helping me to call around other branch to ask for the treats. Finally, they get to know that Carefour Kepong branch still left two packets ask me whether want to reserve it, so Nicole said it is near we can go there then after dinner we go to Carefour to collect bear treats. Oh ya, when heading to Desa Park City, I go into wrong road then we jam at the U-turn junction for about 20 minutes. =.=

Nice chili sauce that you wont get at Manchester.

My dinner. Stemboat!

After collecting the treats, Nicole bring me to Batu Cave roundabout then I drive home myself she when home also. This the time when MRR2 start jam and I was stuck in MRR2 for bout 1hr plus. When reach home, I go to bath and settle my stuff then I know somebody is worrying so I faster on my skype and he is waiting me. =) Sweet~

This is my Saturday. I love it! Nice shopping and movie with Nicole. Thanks!

Not busy while I am also not too free =)

27 September 2010 until 3rd Octorber 2010

What I have done for the past few days? Me myself also do not know what is happening..But well what come around what goes around! Happy go lucky! First day of the week I got nothing to do so I think of settling all the Photostat notes for my students and all the exam questions that I have prepared need to Photostat and seal it so I decided to walk out to the nearest Photostat shop. Another important thing that I have to do is pos out a small parcel to my dearest who is now at Manchester enjoying the life style that he choose.

Well, I also need to go bank to updates all my stuff so I walk out. First, I go to post office because I worry that the parcel that I need to send out will be very expensive so I decided to go and settle it first. Surprisingly, the parcel only cost me RM 2.50! So I got to save up my RM50 so happy then I walk to Photostat shop to settle all the Photostat notes and exam papers. Ok lastly I walk to the bank to settle my stuff. Suddenly, when I walk pass by the hair cut shop that dear use to do his hair cut there, my heart ask me to cut my hair short, so I went in and now I have my new hair cut! =P

Tuesday like normal I when to work and then come back from work I lazy to go out and buy food I online purchased a piece of pizza. Now if you purchase pizza online you got another free regular pizza so is quite worth then the other regular pizza mom say ask my brother to eat. So we everyone whole day eat pizza. This is my Tuesday!

Yeah, Wednesday is here! I wait for the day for so long. Because today Khey come over to my house and overnight! We girls have our pillow talk. This is what girls do usually and we chat until quite late. Today, we when for Hokkien Mee and Hai Nan Mee. We sit down eat and chat about 2hrs plus.

Thursday, my dear awake me to go for work. Normally Thursday I need to awake at 7am so he knows that if he awakes me I will not sleep back. But today bit difference because when I awake brush teeth and prepare to go work my stomach pain become more serious and it is also a raining day so I cannot work while my stomach so painful and I called the clerk and told her I am not coming taking MC.

Friday is today. I got nothing to do except teach tuition at evening 5pm until 10pm at night. 5 hours of tuition! Actually I do not like so long hours of tuition but I got no choice. If there is a good job waiting me I will drop my tuition at 5pm because I am not robot I need rest. Thinking of where to dinner tonight.

Tomorrow is Saturday, me and Nicole already plan to go 1 Utama shopping, movie and eat! I already bought ticket online for Legend of the Guardian. Hope is a nice adventure movie that is like Narnia. I like Narnia waiting the next episode out but till now not yet out also. This is my first time movie without my dear. Normally, I only go movie with him. Sad case right? But I think it would be fun because is just me and Nicole we can take our own sweet time to shop and eat! Dear, you owe me a lot! Wait you to compensate everything when you are back!

Sunday I do not know what my plan is. Currently, my Sunday is so lonely because my brother is going to his friend house overnight to settle his group assignment left me alone at home. So, I am thinking what I shall do to fill my Sunday.

Miss you a lot!

That’s all for this week! Chao~

亲爱的,我希望有个100 分的你!

一。每天睡觉之前一定要给我打一个电话，不管你有多晚， 因为我一直在等你，只是我嘴上说不管。

二。就算你再忙，你也不能一连好几天不给我短信或电话， 或者对我忽冷忽热。任何时候不要让我找不到你，因为这样我会一 直很不安心。

三。 就算我跟你无理取闹你也要原谅我，因为那是在测试你在乎我的程度。因为那是我缺乏安全感,你要了解你在那么远。

四。你要经常去我的个人主页，即使什么也不留下，但是我看到你来过的记录也会很开心。

五。你问我想不想你时，如果我说不想，你一定要很开心， 因为我的不想就是想。

六。对我对你已经说过一万遍的关心，不要不耐烦的说知道了知道了，要很感动的说谢谢，因为那真的都是我出自内心的关心。

七。当我关心你时，不要说出：“原来你也会关心我”这样的话 。这样会很伤我心，因为这对于我来说是一种很大的否定。

八。当你和我打电话时，你一定要我先挂你的电话，即使我说了一百遍要你先挂。

九。不要什么都让我主动。

十一。你就是要每天不厌其烦的陪我吃饭、送我上下班的那个人,因为我每天都在等着你。

十二。我就是早晨你醒来时第一个想到的那个人

十三。你就是能跟我打电话聊到半夜都舍不得挂的那个人

十四。你就是在我最艰难的时候陪伴在我身边的那个人

十五。你就是手机里总是存满我给你发的短信，直到信箱满了都舍不得删掉的那个人

十六。你就是无论我是不是漂亮都会夸赞我漂亮的那个人

十七。你就是在我任性、耍小脾气时，也会忍住脾气不会冲我发火的那个人

十八。你就是看到我流泪时，为我擦去泪水给我一个温暖拥抱的那个人

十九。我就算犯了错误，你也舍不得骂我的那个人

二十。你就是可以在车站等我很久也不会介意的那个人

二十一。你就是明明最不喜欢逛街，还能陪我一家一家的逛到我觉得满意为止的那个人

二十二。你就是有着宽厚的肩膀可以让我随时依靠的那个人

二十三。你就是吃饭时放慢速度等我的那个人

二十四。你就是总是让我走在马路内侧的那个人

二十五。你就是过马路时会紧紧拉住我的手的人

二十六。你就是深夜为我开着手机的那个人

当你读到这篇文章时，立刻会想到的那个人会是谁呢？是我的话，我就非常高兴咯！我的要求可不是说很高哦！真的希望你可以尽你的能力做到我所说的。。。没有100分都要有99分！想念你！爱你哦！

I MISS YOU!

I miss you when you are 5 seconds away from me.

I miss you when im doing my work.

It doesn't matter where i may be i miss you the most.

I miss you when there is something good happes, because your the first i want to run and tell.

I miss you when i laugh, because you make me even happier.

I miss you when you are far away.

I miss you every night and day.

I miss you now and forever, even we are not together now.

I MISS YOU!!

Sometimes when i am alone, i close my eye and think about you. The thought of your love warms me inside and make me smile.

If you want to know how much i miss you, look at the sky and count the stars, the one you count is how much you miss me and the one you count is how much i miss you!

I pray to the God that:

Dear Lord,

Please keep him safe in the other side of the earth,

Please let him know that I miss him and I love him.

Since the day.........

Perhaps, I did not update my blog quite long already. Now I start back blogging is because of you, if you want to know what I have done here then just view my blog it would be sufficient enough to let you know my condition. *BLEK*

If you cannot get me in skype, might be I am too tired or else you timing and my timing really a big issue. Since 12 September 2010, I am alone till now. Tomorrow I will be alone too because brother going dinner and movie with friends I will be at home with Ronnie and Bear.

I do not know how to express my feelings but without u definitely I feel like unsecure. Like something is missing I can’t describe how I just know that I am so lonely. Coming Monday I am going to Jusco with mom together to shop some groceries. My maggi mee sedap finish already. Today we went down to Kajang eat char kuey tiew then go back to grandpa place to visti him, but he is not in so we just went back to KL. We stop at Leisure Mall BR for some ice-cream only return home.

I still cannot get use to the days that without you. 5yrs is not a short period. Everyday you are by my side suddenly just gone like this. Need time to get use to it. Ok, will updates when I feel to do so! If you are reading my blog, I will update more frequently! =p