How would my 2010 end?

This is a very good question. Everyone is planning their New Year Eve and Christmas Eve in advance but me sitting here plan nothing. Because this year is the transition period in me which my Christmas Eve, Christmas and New Year eve and New Year for 2011 I am alone. He is at Manchester United cannot celebrate this few event with me together again. Wait for three more years he MIGHT be coming back. Why might? Because I not sure yet what is his next planning.
Let’s refresh what have been happen in the year of 2010.

January 2010
I knew the year of 2010 will be the toughest year for me. This is because my special ones told me that he already decided to leave me in Malaysia and he is heading to Manchester to future his studies so that our future life will be much better than what we have now. I accept it as faith. In my heart, I really very angry at him but there have no choice; since this is what he wants I have to give. What he had decided, nobody can change. That’s the fact!

February 2010
He is busy preparing for his final exam that comes after Chinese New Year. For me, I am always the one that enjoy the most when he is around me. He will pick me here and there, wherever I want to go he will send me, whatever I want to eat he will bring me there. This is the best part when it comes to holiday. This year Chinese New Year a bit difference because Valentine day falls on the 1st day of CNY. Therefore, no celebration. So sad right? At least I got a gift from him and he promise to replace the celebration after his exam. That’s February. Time flies so fast that March is on the way coming. In the particular month, I really hope that the time can stop moving so that he will be by my side until the day we turns old because without him everything like lost direction. Maybe what Say June said is right, he pamper me too much already.

March 2010
He got his latest letter offer and starts to plan how to talk to his family about his future studies at United Kingdom. This month is my exam month too. All my presentation and mid-term crash together. Therefore, I am so stress up by everything until we argue and had a big fight. This is what I remember.

April 2010
I am busying with my final year project and theses as well as other coursemate also do the same as me.

May 2010
Busy revising for the final year and final semester exam.

June 2010
Start working at Sekolah Sri Murni as permanent teaching staff.

July 2010
Birthday celebration for me and my dear. Bur this year we celebrate it among ourselves only. There is no special event for our birthday.

August 2010
This is the month where I emo a lot because next month on the 12th he is going to left me and heading to Manchester for his studies. So, both couple plans a vacation to Genting for the sake of having happy memories before they depart to UK leaving me and Nicole behind. However, I still feel lack of something that I do not know what is it in this month. Anyhow, we are busying with all the packing stuff along the whole month and because of this I change from permanent teaching staff to flexi teaching staff. Overall, the month of August is the month of sadness.

September 2010
I really hate September 2010. This is the month that he is going to leave me. From the beginning of the month, everyone is busy helping him packing his luggage and all the daily stuff that he needs. He will depart on 12 September 2010. Till the day end I will remember this date. I wish that this date will never reach but this is reality not my imaginary world so time will never stop I knew that I need to face the fact that he is leaving very soon. On that particular day, I drove to KLIA and I send him there. Amazing right? Sending off someone you love so much. At 1st I don’t really feel anything, I thought that I can bear with his departure to UK without dropping tears but I am wrong. My tears start to falls once Azrul reach the airport. We sat down in a coffee shop and chit chat, suddenly my heart feels so painful and I wanted to hug him so tight I don’t wish to let go. However, I get to control myself I keep on ask him to get off to the gate of departure because I really worry that I will not let him go. Luckily, Nicole is with me because she too sending off someone that she love so much. At last, we both cried when they already enter the immigration departure gates. The most amazing things are I still able to drive back to KL from KLIA. But that night is definitely a very bitter night that I ever had. My best friend knew that I am sending him off to UK, she called me up and ask how am I. Always there is still friends around me these make me a little bit better. After he departs on the 12 of September, my final exam comes on 15 of September. This makes me crazy. I don’t even know how to stable down my emotion in few days time and back to my books to finish off my revision. The worst things are this is the 1st final exam that he is not with me. From the day I start my degree he is always there to send me and pick me for my every exam either mid-term or final. Now I need to take KTM all the way to Kampar myself to sit for the final exam. There Say June will take care of my everything. He is the best God Brother of mine.

October 2010
One month already he departs to Manchester. I miss him so much~ Sometimes when I miss him in the middle of the night, I will hugs the bear and cried myself silently. I cant get use to the life without him. It is so hard!

November 2010
Two month already he departs to Manchester. Miss him more and more~ I start to envy those couple that sharing their time together with each other every day. This is the month that I my emotion keep going down and down and down. Just because of you are not beside me. Another reason is season greeting is just around the corner this make my mood worst. One more is we kept arguing almost every time we chat.

December 2010
The month of December is the most adventurous month. This is the month that I shop a lot, movie a lot, eat a lot and also spend a lot because of the shopping. My mood starts to recover as few of my close friends give me some accompany. Appreciate those who spend time accompany me to have fun and also those who bring me out for nice food. =)

3rd December 2010: Meet Azrul, Nabil, Wilson, Lutfi at Sunway Pyramid then we when to Shogun to have our buffet dinner.

4th December 2010: When jogging(force to) then after jogging go home bath and have some rest while saving all my documents into my pendrive then heading to times square for Rapunzel tangled tale before that I send my computer to Imbi Plaza for repairing. After the movie, I went to Midvalley Redbox for sing k session. That day was really tiring. Reach home straight when to bed.

6th December 2010: Got job offer from KBU College. I am so happy.

7th December 2010: Is public holiday again. When jogging then go to mid valley to watch Narnia and went shopping for my working attire. Get a SEED coat which cost me RM200.

In between these dates there are activities going on which is go jogging in different park. We when jogging at Bukit Jalil park but mostly there is not jogging, can consider as visiting wild life because there are lots of animals in the park! I saw monkeys……hee…….my best friends forever.

24th December 2010: When to MidValley for dinner and the outback steak house for supper. I am gaining weight! Oh I cant believe that I ate that much on the day itself!

25th December 2010: When Sunway Pyramid for shopping again. But I bought nothing even that day is Christmas sales! I think this called window shopping. We have lunch at Full House and the dessert there is super delicious! I like the puff so much! After that, we when ice room for ice session! Then I went home dinner alone due to some reason……>.<

26th December 2010: When kajang suddenly for satay session! Then the “driver” kidnap me makan angin around Hulu Langat reason is try out new road and avoid toll @.@ On that particular day, William kena bully by me when we when makan angin around the hill top…hahaha

27th December 2010: Start my working life as a lecturer. Is super busy. Until now I am still preparing power point slide and notes for the students. Semester start on 6th Jan 2011.

30th December 2010: Today mood extremely good because 31st declared as public holiday by our PM. So that I can sleep and have fun counting down! Glade that is public holiday if not I needs to freeze 1 more day in my office which cold like winter!

31st December 2010: Still no planning and uncertain yet. My New Year wish is forget the sad things and remember the sweet memories that we have in 2010. Move on sweet heart! You need to do so little girl! <-- Given this nickname by “badak”. Now few people called me this way!
My wish list for the year of 2011 will be remaining in my mind. Will not announce…..so do my hope…..Have a blast and a great year of 2011 ahead! Wish everyone that read my blog a Happy new year 2011. =)